Saturday, February 19, 2011
Broken to pieces
My orchids are blooming..
Well..it has been a long time I did not write. I have been so busy and was not feeling well. After I had taken medication and controlled my stress, I feel better but never miss my pills or else the blood pressure will surely rise up...like yesterday.
Yesterday I had a meeting in the afternoon. There I discovered something which pissed me off and broke my heart...to pieces. My soon- to- be- 14 year old daughter..the baby I have loved so dearly and ever ready to die for had betrayed me..I was so sad and devastated to find out the truth..and it made me so mad until I screamed at her at the top of my voice..I slapped her on the face even she held my legs asking for forgiveness which I ignored. That mad! And I spent a sleepless night thinking about it..how could you do this to me? This morning I was still mad but I did not show it much coz I am sure she had got the message..do it again, you will get another bash from me..
Aurora...4 months and two weeks already.. had started eating soft blended rice..a few tiny spoonfuls as a start. I knew it was quite early to introduce solid food for her but I could see she was ready for it. So today marks her 4th day taking solid..well not really solid..very watery rice porridge actually. Today I could see she enjoyed it and taking every spoonful with gusto..until she refused to take no more..and started pushing the rice in and out playfully..
This afternoon My family went to have a farewell party for one of my office colleagues. He had served more than 30 years in our office but I was sad to see that only few of my other office mates turned up for the party..The fact that he was only the gardener and had no position in our office may one of the reasons why others inconsiderately failed to come..Sometimes I was left in wonder of why are some people are so selfish and insensitive..and shocked to see those who consider themselves as educated and religious conscious individuals are in fact the worst people of all. Wait for their turns..the day they leave the service and nobody cares..nobody appreciates..their time will come..Allah is ALWAYS fair to everybody.