Saturday, February 26, 2011
My hypertension is still disturbing me. I do my best to control it. Taking medicine..very choosy in my food intake..taking supplements..herbs..whatever..as long as I can go through every single day of my life healthily. I have a very strong reason why I have to stay alive and be healthy. That is, I have a gift..a gift to be enjoyed to my last breath..if Allah permits..
My baby..my love Aurora. Every single day..every single moment,every time I stare into her eyes and she looks at me intensely, I thank Allah again and again..thank YOU very much for giving me this gift..a VERY special gift ever given to me in my whole life. She came when I had given up hope that I could ever have another baby with my second husband. I had two painful and sad miss carriages and later I stopped trying. I found out I was pregnant with Aurora a year after that..countless visits to hospitals..a few hundred times taking injections for insulin..drips..so many others problems..and finally Allah granted my wish for a healthy baby..so sweet.. until now I could not believe she is really here..and mine.
So now..I really pray hard to Allah..let me enjoy your gift..I savour every single moment being a mother to her..she heals my pains..she gives me hopes..she lights my dark nights..she pours me love..happiness..she is my world now. Please Allah..help me fight my illness so I can take care of your gift for me. Thank You.