23 days old..

She is 23 days old..with all problems and black eyes ( lack of good nite sleeps )...my love for her grows everyday..deeper and deeper..I love u my Aurora..love u so much...

My bundle of joy

It has been two weeks already..and my dear baby is two weeks old..I cant forget the day when she was born..it was a memorable day and out of sudden everything happened so fast and by midnight 6th October last week she was taken out of my womb. When the nurse asked me to identify the sex of my baby and I said " a girl"..the nurse put her near ,my cheecks...so soft..immediately I fell in love with her...I love u so much sayang..so much..

I was mesmerised by her face...sitting and looking at her for hours and hours...does not bore me..same with my hubby..now he fully understands how to fall in love with two women..how strong and possessive the love is...

Dear Allah..thank you so much for this bundle of joy...we are very grateful..thank you..even it was very painful the labour process..I am willing to be cut a thousand time again and again when finally she is mine..thank you again Allah..

Thinking..dreaming..planning

Been sitting almost 2 hours on my bed doing all those..but no results..I was thinking of packing my clothes in a bag (to be carried with me on the appoinment day with doc on the 6th next week)...didn't achieve this task yet...dreaming of good old day and happy memories....well..so far my dreams interrupted by anger and sadness towards my lover boy now (sigh)...planning to cook special dishes for lunch today...won't happen coz I refused to open my locked room now...

To avoid readers from being dizzy reading the meaning between the lines...I had a fight ( no...a "merajuk" case with my strong- headed lover boy...eee...geram tul la..