Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Happy Birthday to my dearest husband...Bius

My love,
It seems ages ago we have met, fallen in love, get married and now Insya Allah we will grow old together..Tomorrow you will be a year older. I think its your luck or may be genetically you never seems to look older. You are still the same person with boyish look that amused me more than 10 years ago. When you cut your hair short, you could pose as a 25 years old man..more like my brother than my husband. Many times I felt irritated when strangers mistook you as my son..many times I felt sad too.  However, nowadays I don't care much about what people might think when seeing us walking together. The most important thing is, what do YOU, my husband, think about ME. Somehow I know, you are still the same person I have known many many years ago. The one that never tries to win my heart by sweet-talking me, never offer unnecessary compliments, compliments me only when you think that I go beyond excellent in anything, but appreciates me and my efforts in anything by being a loyal, loving, caring and most compassionate man I have ever met in my life.

My love,
One thing that you have changed is that you have become mellowed by Aurora. You used to be very strict with Am but with Ayuni and now Aurora you have gone kaput. Hehe..gone your temper and harsh ways. I can see that the girls have been pampered too much. Moreover, Aurora have captured your heart completely..that you are weak to your knees with her.  That you will do anything for her. To me, nowadays I am used to your styles, to your strange ways of showing love, to your undemanding attentions, to your taste buds, to you temper, to your everything of you so that sometimes I smiled listening to your babbling..and finally you will be quiet. May be these babbles come with age. I used to babble but now when getting old I am tired to say much..better say once and that's that. However, it is the opposite with you..or may be men like to babble more when getting older. I don't know..its just my hypothesis.

I can go on and on..but then it will be a redundant. My love is more than words actually. More like acceptance, contentment, happiness that is beyond my expectation. I had experienced bitterness in my first marriage and I have prayed without much hope that I could ever be happy in my life. With Allah grace and compassion to His subjects, He had answered my lamenting. He sent me this man to complete my journey with a new experience..this time with happiness.."bahagia" that I used to imagine. He is not 100 percent perfect but me too so I would not mind much. As long as he loves me and my children, that's enough.

Even you would never read this, I am happy enough if the words printed here will forever be here. I am so happy being your wife and I would like to be your wife even in the next world. I could never imagine life without you. I pray that you will be with me till we both grow older. Be a more obedient servant to Allah and by His grace too, we will die together.

Happy Birthday my love..

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Steamed bananas and kindness

I was having this craving for steamed bananas for several weeks. I had tried so many times to buy bananas at the market. Every time I went there would be no bananas except those ripe bananas which are not the one I was looking for. Until one day, after work I stopped by at a the bananas fritter stall. I wanted to buy some kuih when I saw hanging at the stall the bananas I was looking for quite sometimes. I bravely asked the makcik to sell some to me.

She said that bananas are not for sale. I begged..please sell the tome..I said I was craving for steamed bananas. The lady asked..."teringin ker? mengidam? Oh no..I was not that "mengidam". She said.."kesian..ambil la pisang ni..teringin kan..She pitied need to pay her...she said..sedekah. I was so thankful..brought home the bananas, steamed them and eat with grated coconut and sugar. It was heavens.. Thank you..kindness are shown to me that day. May Allah bless you makcik..

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Time flies..

The day does not flip like pages in a book..nowadays it goes as quickly as a computer screen... a click on keyboard..then the screen fast.

I have noticed things are getting faster..sometimes I  stumbled upon things..unexpected things. Somehow...someway,  I have managed to get up to my feet and move on. The one thing I realized I am getting old. Some of the people I have known had gone..some have moved out far away..some stay being the same persons..some changed..getting older like me. Its the fact that time is catching up fast with me. Sadly, even though I know  things are moving fast, I have yet not doing the best out of it. I mean..when will I do more to get closer with The Al-Mighty? I am running here and there for survival..but how do I survive in the after world?

We went out today to eat out and to see things. Just to relax..and to buy our birthday gifts. My husband had asked me what would I like to get as a gift. I had no idea. Actually I have every things..I have enough. I have no wish but my hubby brought me to a jewellery shop. he said..choose. At the end I bought a new ring..a wardrobe..and nothing for him. Like me he said he did not want any thing..he has all. I want to buy something for him but frankly I have no idea. I will wait for Am to come home so we could think if something.

Till then..

P/s...congratulations Net. You did well.