Tired

Almost everyday I came home late. Meeting,projects,programmes...I can't take it anymore..so much to do and so little time..

I want to do a special entry and give my personal comments on the increasing cases of 'stealing husbands"..as two of my blogging friends experienced..Net and Kasih Firdaus..
However I haven't got time to type..may be this weekend..

So before that..the women who steal other women's husbands please answer my one question..Where is your conscience? Stealing things from other is bad..what more stealing other women's husbands..and stealing their lives? Where do you put your heart?
How can you sleep every nite?

My heart has gone away...

I have been working at the same place for nearly 11 years..I transferred from far away to this place. At first I enjoyed the peacefulness and calmness but now I am not happy anymore. Things are different..people have changed and the serenity of this place has gone..

I started as nobody..now I am somebody..and I don't like it. I choose to enjoy my life after all the hardships in my early working years. Now I have a stable job..satisfying salary and beautiful family..I wish no more except spending my time happily and no headache and heartache..

The thing that has been in my mind these days is I want to move on..transfer to another office and forget whatever unhappiness here. I will do something to make my wish come true..and I am praying hard to Allah to let the truth finally revealed..

The one source of my happiness nowadays and my misery melt away.. my love Aurora..my family..

A Visit

Aurora with her big brother

Yesterday, Saturday, early morning I woke up the children, prepared my baby's bath, packed her things and ours..and later straight we went to visit my father who lives some two hours drive away.

My father had never seen Aurora before. He is too old to travel so we had to go back and showed him his new grandchild. He is not feeling well due to his diabetic problem but overall he is fine. He was happy to see us but could only hold Aurora for a while for she moved a lot and my father was scared he might drop her. My hubby bought some food and we had a simple but nice lunch. My father's house was very near to a river so the wind was cooling and calming.

After lunch I went out to have a chat with my father's neighbour's wife. I called her Makcik Nab. We exchanged news,talking about her children and kampong folks whom I know. One thing that she said but marked in my heart was about me going back to visit my father and my mom when she was around (she passed away 10 years ago performing Hajj). Makcik Nab said I was the only child who keeps on coming and visit my father..while the rest of my sibling rarely do so and some never even stepped on my father's compound since 10 years ago. Well... I told her, all others have their own lives..married with husbands who don't favour my family and my parents..so what to do? Even my mother could never say anything if her own flesh and blood abandon her when some of her daughter married to lousy and stupid husbands. She just kept everything inside her and continued to be nice to her son-in-laws. I knew she was sad but when she was alive I did everything I could to make her happy..took her anywhere she wanted to go and gave her anything she wanted to eat. She used to say to me that she was satisfied going out with me because I was the only child with whom she traveled to many places and ate a lot of delicious food. The last thing I did for her was to send her to Mecca performing Hajj..she passed away there. I was really sad when she didn't come back but at the same time happy because I managed to make her wish came true..to go to Mecca and died there.

I don't have much money to give to my father,nor having much time to visit him often..but I will continue to be a good daughter because his name is after my name and I carry this name forever till I die.

Aurora is 3 months old

Yup..she is. Getting bigger, heavier and cuter..hehehe.

I finished my work then immediately rushed home. Ate a quick lunch and zoom we went to clinic for Aurora's appointment and injection. The latter was the part I am scared to face. I don't mind if I have to take the injection a hundred times but not my baby. Well..it's all for a good reason. Now she is sleeping but keeps on moaning waking up many times. Sign...another sleepless night for me.

Fire!

I was really angry today. However one good thing about me is I don't bring up my anger and lash it to everybody. I just focus on the person (the source) of my anger..and there she got to see my worst side. And I am sure she will remember it forever in her life.

I was never hash to my subordinates,even they are testing my patient many times. I am a very considerate person and always make sure everybody is comfortable with me and helps them in any way possible. I can joke and laugh freely with them without thinking so much that I am the boss and they are my subordinates. However, one thing that they have to remember there is a limit in anything. ONE thing that I really HATE is talking or a better word for that ...mengumpat...my personal things. I have never bother about their personal things and like to look for any gossip. I respect them..and they too have to respect me..fair.

So today, finally I can't restrain my self and I "fire" the person. I cried because I felt so much hurt by what she did but it was a relief because finally I released my anger. Serve her right. Next time please mind your own business and remember I am still the boss!

Aurora's new tricks

My sweet Aurora

After the case of colic last week, Aurora is better after taking the medicine. However, we don't want to depend solely on medicine every time she has colic.So, I went around to ask for any "petua" to prevent colic. We tried it all. I am still searching for any bidan to massage her tummy since my friend said it one of the ways that work for colic babies.

We also decided to change her formula. She has taken Enfalac A+ since she was born. We thought may be she couldn't take soy milk so we changed into cow milk formula..Nan Pro. After a few days she has showed some improvements. We were scared she might not like it or it was not suitable for her but it seems alright until today. We are relief.

Aurora will turn to be 3 months old next week. She has developed many new skills and tricks too. She can see clearly now and her eyes would follow me everywhere. She has started cooing..sweet sounds from her..as if she is trying to talk to us. She smiles a lot every time we speak to her. She likes to put her fingers inside her mouth. Her baby gloves are always wet and I have to change it several times a day. She is quiet heavy to be put on the shoulder and my arms are in pain for carrying her a lot. Besides that she is still and will continue to be the cutest baby in my world.We thank to Allah for she is healthy and grown up well.

I pray to Allah to endow us prosperity, health and happiness for all of us this new year 2011. And I hope I can perform my duty well as wife, mother, worker and most of all a humble servant to You Allah The Almighty.