Never again..

 I had  prayed to Allah not to see him.. The person I loathed so much..

Nevertheless, I saw his face just now.. What a 'malang' day for me.. Really a bad day.. 

Wut

The phone call 2

 And that night the widow  called me asking the children to 'let go' their rights on a house as a part of the faraid.. The dividing of money and properties of the deceased in a acordance  to Islamic law.. In this case, my ex. And my children have their rights in. 

The house and some other properties and money are to be included in the faraid but she asked that the house  to be spared. Reason, she and her children have no where to go.. That's the only house the deceased husband bought for her to stay. 

Immediately I recalled what did her husband do to me and his children  when he divorced me some 20 years ago. At that time, he had never bought anything for us.. Leaving me alone to fend for his children..he had never pay alimony, never pay child support.. Never care on how I survived in bringing up his children. Had never bothered to help in raising money for children education.. And now my children and I should consider how his widow would survive without him when some 20 years ago he left me with nothing but debts and loans to pay. 

Frankly.. I do not care. 

However, I am not cruel like my ex. I told her, she can stay in the house.. My children are not cold blooded human and not asking the house to be sold and the money to be divided as part of faraid.. We apparently have hearts compared to the father. 

I was tempted to bad mouth him with his widow and demanded that the house to be sold and giving my children the money.. But I am not bad..not like him. I would not take revenge.. Let Allah pays.. 

Let that be a 'hutang' which my children and me would collect on the day of the final judgement..

Wut