A lifetime wish.. Al Qadar

 It has been more than a month I abandon the blog.. Not that I didn't have anything to write but I was quite buzy running house chores and personal things.

Some updating.. Aurora has started secondary school last March. I had bought the uniforms long time ago but putting on her 'tudung' every morning is very tedious coz with Ayuni, she could do it by herself. This secondary school scarf thing was something I had forgotten  already since Ayuni is already a grown  up lady. 

Ayuni too has started working.. She got a job at one of the leasing companies near KLCC.. It's her dream job.. She hates the desk work so this job as to select brands to open their new branch  at the mall of the highest building in KL, the 118 building is her wish come true. And surprisingly, the company she is working with now belongs to my husband's friend. What a small world. 

Am is trying hard to finish his thesis. He has come across problems in his writing but he managed to catch up. He should be able to finish up this June and after viva, he will seek job too. 

Me.. Just the same old woman. Spend more time on my own.. Cooking..reciting..resting..outing sampling food at different restaurants..and sleeping.. Enough to make me tired and content. 

Tomorrow we will drive to Bangi to break fasting with the children.. 

Till then.. 

P/s May all of us be granted a chance to meet Al Qadar.. Insya Allah.. By God Grace.. 

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Melancholic..

 Alone at home.. Silence.

Remembering.. Everything.. 

                            From You Tube

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The rainbow's end..

           From Youtube..Audrey Hepburn's Breakfast at Tiffany 

All of us are going after the same thing

The rainbow's end...

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Misery..

You hurt me 2 years ago.. It was a big cut in my heart.. So painful.. making me suffer a lot.

The misery was not just because of your

cold treatment to me but the worse was the feeling of self realization that I was so stupid to believe in you and giving you a second chance. I hate my self for that.

You are really indispicable for just suddenly keeping quiet and making me hate my self more for still pinning on you.

Remember this.. I will not forgive you.. Forever.. 

Don't ask for forgiveness any more.. Even you are at your death bed..

I will never return to be the person you use to know.. 

I have changed. 

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Finally..

             The first.. I have changed mine.. 

I am checking my feeling..

Do I feel sad? 

Longing? 

Happy? 

Or nothing? 

I saw that person.. Just now. 

With his partner.. 

And I did not know how to react.. 

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Year end.. New year

There are two ways of looking at things at the moment. One, is to count the days left in the current year 2022 and two, by counting few days left before entering the new year, 2023.

I choose number one. 

I feel the urgency of finishing few more tasks of my life in these few days. I feel running out of time with these unfinished businesses. Tasks of my personal achivements.. Which till today are halfway done.

I am not looking foward for the new year. For me, new year comes with new responsibilities. Even though I am not working anymore, my personal tasks are the same. Aurora will soon going to secondary school.. She needs to be more serious of her studies which means I have to be more serious to make sure she studies.. Such a never ending job for me..

I am getting older.. My strength has left me.. Waking up fresh is a rare occasion with most of the time I feel weak and helpless. I spend more time on bed.. Doing many things on bed.. Which making me decided to change mattress and bed frame too.

I tend to be lonely..I am lazy to go out andbe sociable. However I keep contact with few close friends and starting go dating.. Once in Ipoh taking ets.. One dating my old school friend in Kota Warisan recently. I am happy with this few dates. 

Till then. Happy New Year 2023 every body. 

May our lives  be blessed with health and contentment by Allah..

Awi

                

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Godaan Rindu..

Datang kenangan mengganggu di hati

Mengenang malang harapannya jiwa..

... Gelisah hati penuhlah kecewa..

Puas aku cuba nak melupakan

Tapi wajahmu terbayang dalam kenangan

Sungguh siksa ya godaannya rindu

Jika berpisah hati ku terharu

Kau jauh pandangan bila ku kenangkan

Rindu ganggu perasaan... 

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